Recession

It's been a month now since our budget was cut. I'm really hoping that the recession will end next month. I want to go back to the way it was 2 months ago, when I was earning 400$ a week. It truly makes me smile, reading and looking back to the way it was,  when I bought Bhear's bed, and I was able to take care of all the expenses + buy the stuff that I really want.. Now it seems like I just woke from a beautiful dream. I don't know why, but when things turn out to be soooo right, something crappy happens. Now, I'm earning more or less 9k a month which is not even enough to pay for the house that we signed for. Oh how I wish things would go back to the way it was. Now, I don't know. I don't even know if Ill get the same opportunity as before, given that Fernando is jobless, so he needs that job again. I've applied at so many jobs online, I haven't even got a call or an e-mail reply. I need to rise now. I'm 30 going on 31 this year, and it's not cool that I don't have the resources to create a home or raise a family. Everything needs money. Well come to think of it, I was even poorer same time last year. Yet I was almost reaching for the skies before the year ended. Still, I can't wait for the next quarter... I have huge bills to pay. I even owe mom 10000 and Karen, 1500. We're planning to buy a car this year, and I want to make that happen. I know what I should do, I know I should be patient, it's just I've been panicking and I've been in denial for a month now that I can't clear my mind. After this, I'm gonna keep applying. I need more. I need so much more. I need to be wealthy. I need to be prepared to give my family everything they need. I need to move. Make actions. Make achievements. Make a career. Make money.