Feel

Why is that belief so strong? Probably planted in my subconscious growing up.

Anyways, sometimes, I feel like my time is near.

I don't know why... Probably because maybe you feel when your almost done doing something or when you see the finish line on the horizon, i don't know.. Maybe because i feel pains in my chest and my throat is swelling because of my rotten 10 year old impacted tooth.

But I am so happy. So happy to be with my baby. If there is one thing in life that made me worth living on this planet, it's her. the only reason why I live. To love her, my baby, Audi Raizza Ramos.

Been with her for 5 years now, still feel like we just met. Everyday, she's so beautiful, everyday, so fun.

So i guess that's why I feel like something bad is gonna happen. Because I'm so happy.

The only thing that makes me sad though is not being able to provide and give her needs and wants. She's not greedy, she sticks with me though thick and thin. But as a man who loves someone so much, it's just so painful not to be able to provide.

I pray hard that I be given the chance to be the man that provides for her.

I love you baby.