sucks

alone at home.

12:40 in the morning.

waiting for my gf to call, normally she calls around 10-11pm during her lunch but she hasn't been calling these past few days.

makes me recall how happy she was, describing her perkiness at work towards her colleagues, how high she respects her "mentor" etc., but before she left earlier, she just made me get 50php from her wallet, smacked me on the lips and said she'll be going to work. she called me an hour after, said she was tired again, and feeling sick.

I fucking hate this set up. Me, here everyday, no social life, no transportation to go to my friends, cant even play magic cards on a weekend because even that costs money.

I fucking swear to Buddha that when I get a job, I AM GONNA FUCKING FREAK OUT AND BE ALL FRIENDLY AND NICE AGAIN TO THE PEOPLE AROUND ME. I'm gonna hang out with those peeps in team buildings and pool parties and drinking sessions, may they be girls, boys or homosexuals, i don't give a shit. I'm tired of building my life around just one person and it's making me SICK metaphorically and literally speaking.

I'm gonna turn my phone to silent now coz im sleeping. Good night.